breathtaking.

the sky is so beautiful after i saw this picture.i love this picture to everybit & the photographer is amazing who is Manveer Gill . i love all his work ,there's just something about the pictures he takes & i swear it's feels so real somehow.therefore,i will always love his work because it's just breathtaking in some way to me.

this on the other hand is just beautiful.i love it ,it was taken at new zealand or either australia by this awesome friend Derik Ng or you can check out his blog . he knows what he is doing and he loves it .

if i had to choose between both of them,there will no decision taken because both of them are as amazing as they are :)

a way of my life.

watched zindagi na milegi dobara with puva,canny & yovi for my 5th time probably ,damn i love that  movie & one of the reason's are this :)

Dilon mein tum apni betaabiyan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum;
Nazar mein khwabon ki bijliyan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum;
Hawa ke jhokon ke jaise aazad rehno sikho,
Tum ek dariya ke jaise lehron mein behna sikho,
Har ek lamhe se tum milo khole apni bhaayein,
Har ek pal ek naya samha dekhen yeh nigahaein,
Jo apni aankhon mein hairaniyan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum;
Dilon mein tum apni betaabiyan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum;

If you carry impatience in your heart then you are alive
If you carry the sparkle of dreams in your eyes then you are alive
Learn to live like the gust of wind
Learn to flow like the stream among the waves
Receive every moment in life with open arms
See every moment as a new beginning
If you carry surprise in your eyes then you are alive
If you carry impatience in your heart then you are alive

- Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara

going to pyramid to shop with canny & yovi ,hoyeah :D 

i hoped.

thats not possible for my dad's side now,i just hope my grandma is able to see me go to college or abroad or something i achieved in life.i just want her to be there when i do.please GOD .
i hope my grandma and step grandpa in australia lives until this too,if not the wedding whatever i achieved in life for now.

end ends with a new begining .

so today was the last day of school, intially school ended for us when the class party was over,i didnt go i went the day before. most of my friends went to see whats happening and to collect the money from the goverment.i already miss them so much eventhough some of them come over most of the time to relax,talk and eat ;) p.s.amazing life (Y) since our class party and now i will be gone most probably for a week or 2 due to the stay over and my teen training program and the last chance of seeing them is like after the 4th of dec,damn it ! lets just hope a few of them can come over on sunday to watch a movie at my place before i leave at night (:
whole new resolution for next year ;) i am getting a head start already ,and the results for the exam better be damn good.i just wanna start over with smiles,laughters,fun,friends,studys & family. crosses fingers* next year please be good to me i dont wan it to be like this year,i wanna enjoy and have fun,do shit,study hard & make somthing out of my life.

happiness depends upon ourselves,i tend to do so.

gone.

he passed away on 5th November Saturday,approximately 6.03pm . i was on my way home from times square after meeting my old school mates,my dad had to sent me home and then rush to the hospital, by the time i almost reached home,he got a call and he was gone.according to the the problems stated,he wasnt breathing normally,and by the time the doctors got a hold of him his artery in his lung burst,assumptions by the doctors it was a heart attack.i was shocked for a moment,my mum jst landed from indonesia and she called,i told her what happened she couldnt believe it.she rushed home and showered,we went over to my grandma's hse with our bags,it was just like he was laying there ;taking a nap for me.everyone was there,everyone.we were suppose to stay over but i and my brother ended up going back with my cousin sister to stay but my mum stayed over at my grandmother's hse.a night of not sleeping made it worst when we arrived at early bird at my grandfather's house and knowing he was going to be creminated today at noon.tears came out of everyone's eye and it never ended.more bad news came afterwards and i had to stay far.among all the people 3 were aimed,it wasnt a joke that i couldnt even see him clearly or say byee.it was time for him to go by noon and thats when i had to step away,everyone was crying .my grandmother kept it in hold,she didnt cry that much beacause she knew it wouldnt help at all,'he would have wanted us to be happy'she said and she couldnt because she just had an eye operation.it wasnt the day we expected,we always thought that he will still be there,being proud of the people we were going to be in the future,another 10 to 15 years were in my head always but it was fate and nobody could change it.i am just glad that he didnt die from suffering ,he died peacefully,he was a good man and had no bad intentions,except the ones he didnt mean harm.i wish i had more time with you .

dear dada,i will always love you <3
you will be never forgotten.
i hope your in peace now after all the suffering.
your grandaughter

may you R.I.P , we will miss you so much.
and nani,please dont leave us soon,i dont think any of us can handle it.
you will always remain in our hearts <3

in the loving memory of nana,5th November 2011

nutella

 oh yeah,a few times :D

done

riding.

this was done a year or 2 back ,i was in thailand with the family and i rided on the back of a motorcycle,a few actually.it was the one of best moment in my life :)
done

it is a beautiful night,and i miss my friends so much ! i wanna meet all of them . they put joy in my life :)

and my mum's away,i miss her so much :'(

lonely girl ;

alone and always will be .
the end

oh GOD,she is changing schools next year and moving away from me to phillipines . i am gonna miss her so much,she was always there for me ,she made me laugh for no damn reason , she's always bubbly cheerful ,there's a lot more to say but they wouldnt even be anough in words.therefore,i love her so much and always will <3 . please protect her from any harm and always makesures she smiles :)